Ive Been Around

Pain
Hurt
Sadness
And loneliness
Ball all that shit right up
Toss it away to the Bibleless
 
You see I’ve lived all my damn life
With all my damn might
Trying to get my mind right, right?
But after 20 years I’ve seen more dreams lose their life
Than I would see dead bodies if karma had a knife
They say what goes up must come down
I don’t get high but I’m off the ground
I’m not alone but no friends are around
Cause you see my so called “father” didn’t care for me
So does that mean that the world wants me to live my life bastardly?
Naw that couldn’t be because my heavenly father was always there for me
What other brother you know can take a bible
Wield it like a rifle
Spitting out spiritual ammunition turning unbelievers into disciples
Because life without faith isn’t living at all
With God on your side you can conquer it all
Yes I’m a believer even though my words phrases and actions aren’t celibate
Sometimes I find myself doing things just for the hell of it
But the hell of it isn’t relevant to the man I see myself as
And like everything else this too shall pass
After I realize
That I should open my real eyes
To pick out the phonies in the homies disguise
They take my kindness and abuse it
Steal my loyalty and abuse it
Fill my head with lies to the point that the level of trust is vacant
I’m really not happy but I live on trying to fake it
Been doing it for years but now I just can’t take it
The bus away from misery is leaving and I don’t think I’m to going to make it
No I will make it, never mistake it
The worries on my shoulders
Feel like 20 ton boulders
But I’m getting them lifted
It’s not a real thing cause I know that I’m gifted
But I wish my sistas would realize
With their real eyes
That real guys
Don’t approach you with their pants hung low
Because that’s just a disguise
Cause I lived all my damn life
With all my damn might
Chasing after girls that my mind kept telling me weren’t right
And I see the good girls get took up by thieves in the night
Taken advantage of to the point that they never see the light
Of real happiness
So if you want a clown or crook who’s going to call you a bitch?
Play with your mind, steal your purse, and toss you into a ditch
Trust me this is some real shit
Look somewhere else cause that aint me
So if you come to see that your current destination
Resides in this situation
You can look and see that you have neighbors around the nation
Cause I’ve come to see most people’s problems come from choices they made
And let me be the 1st to say that I made some mistakes
But admitting is the 1st step to quitting
And my pride won’t let me fall victim to the feelings inside
I don’t rock young money but I know not everybody lives
So I’ll live my life to the fullest until the rock I stand on gives
But the rock I stand on is the hand of Jehovah
So even when I die my life won’t be over…..
 
Man yall……..I’ve been around…..
 
J-Sly
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