music junkie

My lover is pissed
I've surgically attached
my headphones to my skull
because music inhibits
communication
nevermind it's the only world  
I can live in  
that saves me from myself  
 
I wake up everyday  
half-relieved I'm alive
half-disappointed that today
is just the culmination  
of different day  
worsening shit  
 
And my nerve endings
can't take the grating
sound of this version of my life
screaming  
GET UP  
GET NEEDED
GET your needs FORGOTTEN  
in the labyrinth of what it is  
to be everything but an individual  
 
So when everyone's voices
get too loud
and the pain gets too much
I know where I'll be  
and it won't be with you  
telling me you need me
to LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN  
without giving anything back  
 
I've got a playlist  
of sad songs waiting  
and tears waiting to spill
in a catharsis  
only music can bring me