Mercy

please, with a tender touch
with belief in my heart I heal
you were always desired and loved
always wanted and protected
you and I created something beautiful out of the nothingness
you were never a burden but cherished as a gift

hiding in the dark I fed you off my essence
so you would not know we starved
with coping skills I lit the darkness around you
teaching you what was to come
singing to you in the womb we dream in unison

I'm sorry sometimes you saw things that make you scream
eventually they came to collect you
she wanted to be cruel to him
she wanted you as a plaything
I know you love her for making you forget
but mercy is a gift it should be free to all
and he out of guilt will refuse her cruelty nothing
she gifted him my soul
I was used as a high anty poker chip
in her bid to take over his Gold Kingdom

so beautiful upon birth we shine
we created together
I prepared you I hope you are awakening now
my time is up my son
she has found me again

I had a vow from him
born of ill intent his not mine
don't let his guilt and dark cripple you
my love for you won't dull

love is a gift that can't be shaken
use what you know to save our family
you own me no soul debt

I am with you even when I can see you not
this is as free as I've ever been with a mother like her about
she visits only to torment
my tears her candy

she feeds you pity
pity is better than mercy
mercy costs too much
ask the snowflakes
each unique
until they melt into snow

I came to see your light shine
you know only you can truly free you
love who you like here are your memories
in motherhood I am happiest

time travel is possible only in memory
go there and find what you missed out on
your  brother watches us with your honor on his mind
and mine