The Station

Grown weary on this road I travel      
I need to get some rest in      
Watching as my life unravels      
Undergoing vigorous mental testing      
     
What am I running from      
And where am I heading to      
My heart beats like a silent drum      
The haze of life i can't see through      
     
Trying to out race my past      
In the future to get lost      
The present seems to last      
And my history it will cost      
     
Isolated along the road      
A lonely station I see      
Need to refuel before I explode      
And get back to reality      
     
But I remain distant in mind      
So I sit here tired and reflect      
Looking around trying to find      
How did i emotionally wreck      
     
Where did I go wrong      
When did it all begin      
Why am I so far gone      
What is the reasoning      
     
Boiling my soul erupts      
And quickly I realize      
Reality finally caught up      
And it's me i despise      
     
I hate myself for everything      
It's time for this trip to end      
Lies and deception sting      
I need a new journey to begin      
     
As I douse myself with gasoline      
The salvation of this station      
Death is my amphetamine      
Time for a permanent vacation      
     
Ignite this internal flame      
It's finally my turn to die      
My life of lies ashamed      
As my body burns tonight      
     
I deserve the slow torture      
Of feeling myself turn to ash      
Exhaling this pain departure      
Escaping the mental clash      
     
As i feel my skin on fire      
The smell of my burning flesh      
At peace with my ultimate desire      
Breathe in this smoke filled death