The Station

Grown weary on this road I travel    
I need to get some rest in    
Watching as my life unravels    
Undergoing vigorous mental testing    
     
What am I running from    
And where am I heading to    
My heart beats like a silent drum    
The haze of life i can't see through      
     
Trying to out race my past    
In the future to get lost      
The present seems to last      
And my history it will cost    
     
Isolated along the road    
A lonely station I see    
Need to refuel before I explode    
And get back to reality    
     
But I remain distant in mind    
So I sit here tired and reflect    
Looking around trying to find    
How did i emotionally wreck    
     
Where did I go wrong    
When did it all begin    
Why am I so far gone    
What is the reasoning      
     
Boiling my soul erupts    
And quickly I realize    
Reality finally caught up    
And it's me i despise    
     
I hate myself for everything    
It's time for this trip to end    
Lies and deception sting    
I need a new journey to begin    
     
As I douse myself with gasoline    
The salvation of this station    
Death is my amphetamine      
Time for a permanent vacation    
     
Ignite this internal flame    
It's finally my turn to die    
My life of lies ashamed      
As my body burns tonight    
     
I deserve the slow torture    
Of feeling myself turn to ash    
Exhaling this pain departure    
Escaping the mental clash    
     
As i feel my skin on fire    
The smell of my burning flesh    
At peace with my ultimate desire      
Breathe in this smoke filled death