Brenda

 
my mood is somber
my spirit child is asleep and quiet
imploring my Father why?
the hidden knowledges are hidden and a great burden
the truth varies from verse to verse
according which universe you are in
 
why there are different books?
 
according to the planet different morals
according to the atmosphere different looks
differing stages of evolution and devolution
 
He shows me why with a picture in my mind
and I intune with his deep heart...understand
it breaks my heart his pain
 
with knowledge, I hurt Him often
broken and shattered of mind
I hurt him without even knowing
 
I was spiritually attacked in Fresno
standing strong I rose and fought
just to be bitterly beat down
it angered me
 
I command Mike to stand his ground
the Father said it wasn't his assignment then
and that I had no right
 
Mike is mad at me at the moment
but He and Gabriel protect and serve the Father
and they keep me safe even when I'm lost
the lady in the wilderness that is insanity
in the Christian book, the Father says is me
 
He says kindness covers a multitude of sin
and my being lost in my mind kept me innocent
His ways are not my own
but He has my love and loyalty
 
when I stumble He picks me up
I'm here to learn hard lessons
Father, please guard my tongue and mind
and keep Elizabelle and me safe
even when I don't truly understand
how she came to be