Good To Myself

I may be good to you
kind and smart and beautiful
Always treat you with respect and understanding

You may think I'm perfect
mature and strong and healthy
But sometimes it gets hard to keep pretending to you

Cause I'm a fuck up
I don't think I'm pretty, smart or strong at all
I may love you
And you might love me too
'Cause I'd do anything for you
But when I look in the mirror
I ask myself why would someone love me like you do

I see all the flaws in me
Everything that you don't see
It's all hidden deep inside of me
Just waiting to burst out like a waterfall

I bite my tongue and take a breath
And think again before I speak
Cause I don't want to hurt you
But it comes with the price of hurting myself

I don't think you know me at all
Sometimes I don't know myself too
Cause I'm always such a people-pleaser
I hide myself to keep you close to me