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Accursed Poppy
Jumping from my skin
Hair-raising flashes and waves
Like winter breezes
Haunted yawns howling
Visionary eyes tearing
Decrepit visage
Memories of sun
Fading obliviously
Looking outward dark
Nervously stretching
Tensley vasoconstricted
Muscle and tendon
Knee jerk reaction
Kicking and thrashing non-stop
Craving for more dope
Obsessing over
Symptoms unrelenting still
Focusing suffers
Cerebral cortex
Rubbing the back of the neck
Sending chills around
No society
Groups of people relating
Putrid spasming
Passing solitude
Alone in torture solely
Anxiety sweats
Remembering tempts
Brainwaves forever damaged
Once joyful dreaming
Fixated mending
Familiar reasons not
Broken promises
Betrayal always
Dagger of ironic twist
Penalty abuse
Never innocent
Getting selfish gain from lies
Forgiving trust lost
Beating myself up
Strange family pilgrimage
Communication
Possibility
To wash oneself clean of sin
Christ Eternally
New chapter pursuit
Scriptural pages turning
Faithful believing
Hair-raising flashes and waves
Like winter breezes
Haunted yawns howling
Visionary eyes tearing
Decrepit visage
Memories of sun
Fading obliviously
Looking outward dark
Nervously stretching
Tensley vasoconstricted
Muscle and tendon
Knee jerk reaction
Kicking and thrashing non-stop
Craving for more dope
Obsessing over
Symptoms unrelenting still
Focusing suffers
Cerebral cortex
Rubbing the back of the neck
Sending chills around
No society
Groups of people relating
Putrid spasming
Passing solitude
Alone in torture solely
Anxiety sweats
Remembering tempts
Brainwaves forever damaged
Once joyful dreaming
Fixated mending
Familiar reasons not
Broken promises
Betrayal always
Dagger of ironic twist
Penalty abuse
Never innocent
Getting selfish gain from lies
Forgiving trust lost
Beating myself up
Strange family pilgrimage
Communication
Possibility
To wash oneself clean of sin
Christ Eternally
New chapter pursuit
Scriptural pages turning
Faithful believing
Published 19th Apr 2024
| Edited 2nd Sep 2024
Author's Note
As some of you may know, I'm a recovering addict. I've abused many types of drugs; many that no one should brag about. Opioids led me down a path that almost completely destroyed my life. If it wasn't for God's grace and mercy, I'd be a goner. Anyway, this is some of what I went through in attempting to recover. I still struggle with some of it, but I'm getting better. I'm just attempting to share something I know so well in the context of perhaps helping or healing, or even just getting it off my chest. I've never been one for rehab or therapy, but I have a calling from God in my life, and that has helped me tremendously. There is always a light shining, through perseverance and continuing to endure, assuredly. I can speak on that behalf and attest so. Don't let death win.
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20th Apr 2024 10:43am
May each and every day be filled with positive thoughts and a drug free lifestyle. Your an exquisite writer/poet and an amazing reviewer. You have touched many here. Keep flying free.
Your writing here is powerful, honest & real. Nice work.
Your writing here is powerful, honest & real. Nice work.
20th Apr 2024 11:20pm
Thanks for the support. Sincerely, it does influence me in being inspired to write. I'm glad I can share my works. This is just some of the ugly history I am coming out of.
5th Aug 2024 3:05am
Brilliantly written. You're description of the daily in's and out's of how addiction affects you, really delivers the message well. Positive energy and prayers sent your way. Top notch ink. Into the list it belongs. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
7th Aug 2024 00:12am
Hey, thanks for checking it out. Sharing this sort of thing is really easy for me, because I have strong emotional conviction related to it, through experience. Glad you liked it.
3rd Sep 2024 12:38pm
You can certainly write.
Clever, using haikus as stanzas.
Opioid are probably the only thing I haven't touched.
Meth is mostly the "thing" where I live, way to easy to obtain.
Good job getting clean, that in particular is an especially hard habit to kick.
Clever, using haikus as stanzas.
Opioid are probably the only thing I haven't touched.
Meth is mostly the "thing" where I live, way to easy to obtain.
Good job getting clean, that in particular is an especially hard habit to kick.
4th Sep 2024 2:29am
Yeah, I'm glad you found encouragement from reading this. This one comes through the heart, because it's something personal that I've endured and survived. It will always be a battle for me, moving forward. Sobriety is something that I struggle with. I've done too many drugs to name, but I've never done Meth, heh. Thanks for checking it out, and the commentary. It's certainly great to be told I can write. I have many people that doubt me. Anyway, thanks. I'll see you around.
4th Sep 2024 4:45am
You should be very proud of yourself. Remember that willpower should things look bleak. Reminding yourself of what you're capable of will bolster your resolve.
Anyone doubting your ability is envious, most likely. Be well
Anyone doubting your ability is envious, most likely. Be well
