Embrace the solitude

Always wanting more and never getting it
Following your heart and you keep regretting it
Leads you to disappointment and you keep letting it
Never won a hand but you keep betting it
all...taking chances hoping someone will stay true
Making excuses for every hurtful thing they do
If you love them hard enough they cant help but love you
can't love yourself so you find someone else to give it to
Putting them on a pedestal they can't help but fall from
It's so dumb
But your mind's numb
There's the beat of a drum
In your chest
For a moment you forget you're depressed
Not feeling stressed
Thoughts of dying suppressed
You tell them they're the best
Thing thats ever happened to you and you mean it
But those feelings never last, you know it cuz you've seen it
Eventually theres so much dirt it's impossible to clean it
Get caught unaware when you know you should have forseen it
Blinded by the lie of a forever that you pursue
Discarding the intuition from the things you've lived through
Until one day you accept something you already knew
The only person that will ever stay with you...is you

Its ok to release. Embrace the solitude and find your peace