Fear

 
looking through time I shutter
for things done in the dark, I can't utter
whispers, secrets, and lies
flawed I'm told by design
 
madness followed I made a world of illusion
to protect an innocent mind from confusion
Beauty was our creation
tenderly we made all things lovely
 
each day a new exploration
we made heaven from hell in our confinement
it was not enough to put me away from Himself
 
time passed and he came to claim my son
creating a ball of fire
a light meant to warm some
and threaten others
 
a Golden kingdom with guardians established
he took my son from me
and wiped his memories of he and I
 
angels guard his secrets night and day
in his realm they were slaves
my son sang beautifully as second in command
he was happy enough without me
 
one day I escaped my prison
shapeshifted into a man and moved among them
the Father knew right away
it was I coming to check on my child
 
a man now I was proud of him
we grew close I was allowed to reveal myself
brother's in bond we were
warring only in brotherhood I loved him and he I
but I was hiding myself away
 
a child mother, green in experience
had grown with him
for honesties sake, I revealed things to him
part of the brotherhood believed me
 
a great war in the heavens was waged
I was the only one who knew enough
about the Father to take Him out
I was in range for the shot
I hesitated out of fear and love
that's all he needed to get a hold of me
my son and the other angels left
I was imprisoned once more
 
my son now needs to choose
what will it be, a chain of forgetfulness
and approval or face his fears