Trauma

Walking around dazed and confused
No longer able to think about individual traumamatic events that have occured
A hurricane incoming, hitting me all at once
Knocking me down, into a spiral of no end
Flash backs, vivid memories begin
Heart and mind race, adreneline kicks in
It's literly as if I'm in the moments all over again
Wanting to cry, wanting to scream, wanting to fight, wanting to leave
Wanting to face every abuser because today, today I'm stronger Motherfucker!
Flight or fight responses
Reliving moments and thinking of every way each one should have ended
But then I was scared
Now I'm only angry
My thoughts obsessive, compulsive
This is trauma related OCD
Trying to process and understand
Though alone I struggle
Just make it end!