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Get Out Of My Way
Chances for success,
not gone.
Peace of mind, still achievable.
True love, still waiting in the wings.
What prevents these
heartfelt fantasies
from becoming
tangible realities?
Under whose thumb
am I opressed?
Someone who, ostensibly
knows me best.
One who constantly
pierces me
with arrows of insecurity.
Convinces me
that no one could
ever truly love me
with my life
in such a mess.
Tells me when
I see my reflection
that mirrors don't lie.
You'll never be
fit, or handsome, or
alluring enough
to catch a lover's eye.
Who is this malevolent foe
who rains blows
of degradation
upon my weakened back?
It is, of course,
my wretched self.
The only malefactor
keeping this good man low
The very fellow
professing to love me
even head to toe.
not gone.
Peace of mind, still achievable.
True love, still waiting in the wings.
What prevents these
heartfelt fantasies
from becoming
tangible realities?
Under whose thumb
am I opressed?
Someone who, ostensibly
knows me best.
One who constantly
pierces me
with arrows of insecurity.
Convinces me
that no one could
ever truly love me
with my life
in such a mess.
Tells me when
I see my reflection
that mirrors don't lie.
You'll never be
fit, or handsome, or
alluring enough
to catch a lover's eye.
Who is this malevolent foe
who rains blows
of degradation
upon my weakened back?
It is, of course,
my wretched self.
The only malefactor
keeping this good man low
The very fellow
professing to love me
even head to toe.
Published 9th Apr 2024
Author's Note
NaPo2024 #8
It's said that the first step to change or repentance is recognizing there's a problem.
It's said that the first step to change or repentance is recognizing there's a problem.
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9th Apr 2024 4:51am
hello dearest poet good evening I relate to this it's not my looks however that worry me it's my PTSD and bipolar that make me feel that way I can relate I'm sorry you feel this way too...
9th Apr 2024 5:08am
Dearest, Crimsin
I am sorry that you suffer so. Through in common affliction maybe we can find solutions❣ I have suffered from, sometimes crippling, low self esteem and I am exhausted. But I am confident that we have the power within to overcome any obstacle...I firmly know that to be true.
I am sorry that you suffer so. Through in common affliction maybe we can find solutions❣ I have suffered from, sometimes crippling, low self esteem and I am exhausted. But I am confident that we have the power within to overcome any obstacle...I firmly know that to be true.
9th Apr 2024 12:06pm
It looks like someone had a wake up call, perhaps someone one with a big heart. Might it be you? My heart smiles because it's a yes.
"It is, of course,
my wretched self.
The only malefactor
keeping this good man low
The very fellow
professing to love me
even head to toe. "
I completely understand this because it's part of me too, not necessarily looks though. How is it that we throw our heads and hearts into growth and change, finding ourselves and learning self compassion, only to lose it when when needed most? Much like you, I always remember my worth, but I'm not always my best friend. Head up though, Mr, when it comes to finding love. I don't know what you look like, nor do I need to. You're a total sweetheart and intelligent and those things create a handsome man to some girls. 💖✨
"It is, of course,
my wretched self.
The only malefactor
keeping this good man low
The very fellow
professing to love me
even head to toe. "
I completely understand this because it's part of me too, not necessarily looks though. How is it that we throw our heads and hearts into growth and change, finding ourselves and learning self compassion, only to lose it when when needed most? Much like you, I always remember my worth, but I'm not always my best friend. Head up though, Mr, when it comes to finding love. I don't know what you look like, nor do I need to. You're a total sweetheart and intelligent and those things create a handsome man to some girls. 💖✨
15th Apr 2024 6:00pm
You are so kind and sweet to send this message of reassurance and hope. I'm not a bad looking guy I am just very self conscious of my fitness and desireability right now. I appreciate your unconditional gaze. Kinda going through a huge relationship change and just afraid of lonliness. I apologize for not responding sooner...I am a mess right now. Know that I am sincerely touched by your words both when I first read them and now.💕
