tripping downhill

the descent is rising;
my features are freezing,
I find myself staring at nothing in particular,
there's a numbness creeping about.

apathy is increasing and my thoughts are turning bitter,
my mind is becoming distrustful of all things good.
my heart shelters in place.
I'm empty and devoid of feeling.

I see you darkness,
you always know how to greet me old friend.
can you pencil me in?
I think I'll stay awhile.

darkness will you hold me?
I have missed the solemn solace of your embrace.
you filter the world into something I can manage.
please wrap me in your calming cocoon.

I know I can't stay darkness,
I'm just really tired.
I need a break.
is that okay?

dude, darkness, there's just so much,
it's literally everything.
when does it get easier?
does it ever?

hey darkness,
will you silence my brain?
my thoughts are getting to me again.
I'm choosing to believe, but, something's eating me up.

wait, darkness,
how will I get back?
I don't remember the way,
the details are pretty fuzzy.

darkness?
are you there?
I'm scared.
am I on my own?