"good trouble"/bad trouble

       
       
       
    lust; one of those neck and neck battles, one could fight hard but so much; it comes and goes like a werewolf's hunger, and a vampire's need for blood....      
       
     it almost feels like one could die; even when one's eyes are opened wide(consciousness); one tends to grow a distain for one's own existence due to this design....      
       
     there's a lot of triggers-like snipers hitting one's blind spots over and over a million times.... whether or not temptation is satisfied-it's only temporary moments in time....      
       
 it's one of those things that one feels like one stands more to lose, by wanting to experience a "good time"....an alarm going off like"access denied, access denied"      
       
   feels like a curse running through one's whole blood stream-warring against one's mind....makes one hate this part of the "human design"  
   
    but nothing lasts forever- I'd like to imagine I'd conquer these urges before the day that I die-just another one of those things disturbing my peace of mind....