Nothing New to See Here

The days drag on, yet I still continue on my path
The volcano’s about to erupt with all this built-in wrath
I’m expected to push on without any complaint
I’m a struggling human being, not some perfect saint.

I do bother to stick to my convictions
Because I’m sick and tired of acting on presumptions
This planetary war between love and hate
Is making it harder for me to separate…

The reality of life from what I truly yearn
Dreams are dead was the hardest lesson to learn
Yet here I am, still struggling ever more
My body’s chained to the ground, though my soul aches to soar…

High above the clouds to eventually reach the stars
Going out with a bang will be the hit piece in my memoir
Perhaps I’ll be lucky and find someone to share my journey with
Though the idea of soulmates is becoming more of a myth.

We come into the world alone, just as we’ll leave it
Though I’ll enjoy the comfort he brings me even if just for a bit
My current dilemma is that I’m at a crossroad
I bring up my defenses and hit that reload…

Mentality that allowed me to survive up until now
I sometimes feel dead inside, yet I continue to plough…
Through the baggage that’s a heavy weight on my shoulders
“Nothing new to see here” is highlighted bold in my folder.

Indeed, nothing new to see here
Go take a chill pill or down some beer
If only I could shut my mind off for just a moment
Perhaps this gut-retching torment wouldn’t feel so potent.

Sleepless nights are starting to catch up
Leaving my darkest thoughts to blare the line: “You’re fucked”
Oh, shut the hell up; nothing new to hear here
And miraculously, the ringing disappears.

I hear his soothing voice instead whispering sweet promises
Of building a future together, and it sounds oh so marvelous
For that reason alone, I’ll keep on fighting
It’s been a while since my life has been this exciting.

There’s nothing to see here because it’s my journey
That I’ll share with my darling who’s sweeter than honey
The past was then, the present is now
A meaningful future is what I aim to achieve somehow.