Kino Hospital

Been in psych before,
but Kino’s the worst,
Don’t know how people are supposed to get better
in a place like this,
The air is stale,
no open windows,
no fan, no fresh water
Man, stay calm,
I gotta breath
fresh clean air, I thirst…
Nurses & orderlies on power trips
they do not try, no,
No help or relief comin from them,
No private shower,
you use the public shower,
Where you walk in barefoot
with the shit stains on the shower floor & wall,
no warm water, just ice cold water,
that stays on for 15 seconds
before shuttin off, & you have to press for water again,
Psychiatrist is a joke,
barely pays attention,
they twisted words to see my reaction,
Until they deem you not a threat to yourself or others,
but I can do this,
gotta keep it together
just stay alive, & keep it together
though enraged,
mind over macho,
that’s how to beat this;
They fuk with my meds,
leavin me tired,
I go without meals
as punishment for sleepin to much,
& not getting up;
With chronic anemia with sever iron deficiency
Sever calcium & Vitamin D deficiency
Uncontrolled diabetes,
This really fucks with my nervous system & mind
I…NEED…RED MEAT… & MILK…
…One o’ the nurses is pregnant…
She comes in late at night
to check vitals,
can smell her,
I… can… smell her;
~Mmm~
her scent is strong,
it rouses me from what they thought was sleep
Easily over powered, I took her milk,
& biting down, suckin on her bloodied tit,
```~~~…Away in solitaire…~~~```
For what seems forever,
Away from everyone,
But, I feel better
They learned a lesson,
about fuckin with people,
especially the peccant & disturbed,
Those with big mouths shut up, or stay away
You will invoke a unnecessary hostile situation,
Eventually, upom my release,
after tellin them what they needed to hear,
…I left…
Not better, but with a new view on my life
Bein a computer programmer
in my spare time
I found them…
some old friends, from Kino Hospital
I would just LOVE, To entertain,
Show them how I changed, hehehe…
At Kino, they said that I was a bad influence
on the younger ones
An I can feel it growin,
I already killed everyone in my mind
I will find my followers
an start the beginning of what I must call my church
It is the way of the new world
For, I am remade in the image
of everythin wrong with society,
& state run psych hospitals
That do not give a shit;
This, is… My… Beginning;