Use to Abuse

Pushed and pulled I feel torn
I'm anything but strong
I'm so far beyond worn
still you pull me along
this all feels very wrong
please will you release me
just allow me to be

I'm drowning I feel hollow
I don't want a tomorrow
I am no longer whole
God please guide this lone soul
down or up anywhere but here
take the wheel I refuse to steer
they'll never allow me to be
I'm afraid of what awaits me

ask the one who never says no
promise them their sanctuary
decieve them they’ll never know
use them til their soul is wary
a ball and many tempered chains
just drag them along for some years
until they’re numb to all the pains
pay no heed just ignore the tears

I already know what it's like to drown
so please will you kindly hold my head down
I won't put up much of a fight
these eyes have already lost thier light

hold my head under I'm begging you
shove down until there's no more struggle
I've tried but it's something I can't do
I'm not alright I'm beyond troubled
I've said it before it's nothing new
my words have fallen on deaf ears
I haven't felt like myself in years
I really can't take it anymore