Choices in the darkness

There's a evil I know never leaves my side.
It lives deep in my psycie  where the darkness resides.
Its name is no secret and it feeds when im weak.
My sanity the victim, bits of my soul it will slowly reep.
Some days its comfort keeps me from freezing so tightly l hold .
A blanket of deception and lies I sink deeper in the fold.
It's not just me that pays the price. Its my children my family as my heart turns to ice.
Emotions are dulled and struggle is the life that is chosen.
Change must be initiated. I must start to forgive or struggle is the life and I stay frozen.