Loss Of. Self respect

It is a hard battle
There is no doubt
Three hard earned
Steps forward
Two frustrating
Steps back
Screaming
At those
Whispering illogical
Tentacle Thoughts
That are not yours
Invade
 
Slyly demanding
Your muscles obey
To go with the flow
        Down  
To a new Frenqencey
Of unexplored  
      Eventual
  Pain And Regret  
     Desperately Trying
        To Clean the stains  
 
Of Shame