Infectious Me

INFECTIOUS ME
by: BabyGirl
201


Lately,
So,
So,
Alone...
It's never been this
Bad before
So Exiled,
so unfamiliar,
so out of place
within the area
that is supposed
to be my own

Unwillingness
to push myself
to
Make Changes,
CRUSH MY FEARS,
Be Aware of Myself,...

Diffuculties
Smother my ability
to choose,
positivity,
Procrastination &
Self Doubt
Destroy my ability
to Truly see
Good Potential
Afloat upon the
stormy sea.....

The whole
horizon blazes
Pure Hell in
the reflection in
my eyes......

Overly
Self~criticize,
Is it the
True Self
within that I
Despise??

Digging through the
worn out past,
filled with
Disgusting Lies...
My mask pulled
off of my
Weak &
Foolish Disguise
Infinite,Infectious,
Injections,
Intricate form of
Demise...

I'm the
forgotten
Booby Prize,
Growing Older
hasn't seemed to
make me Wise.....

Just left counting
how many times
i've
Failed,
while I Try....

Is this what it
feels like when
your
Soul Dies??.......

auth work
Orig author
poetry
Dana Lynn
2011