Seven

A little more time
 couldn't believe it was real  
when I saw your face through the peephole  
You looked better than you must have felt
 Why come back to the place?
 You left so bruised  
And I spent more time  
conjuring you  
that's why I couldn't believe
 you're standing within my reach  
You said, ‘Olivia could you open the door?
 I know you can't believe that I'm here  
when I promised not to turn up anymore
  but seven years without you is an eternity.'
You lived right by me
 on 7th Street row
and I couldn't believe we hadn't met before
 and you gave me your smile  
and I gave you my life  
which apparently means you had to scar  
And I spent my time  
ushering in you in  
it's like I couldn't believe
  you were somehow beyond my reach  
You said, 'Olivia, could you handle the truth?  
 I know you can't believe the words you said before when you promised you'd never hurt us but seven years have taken a toll on you.'
 But how can I tell you  
my dreams every night
 were made of you
 that my nightmares involved
 you finding your way back
 and I'd hurt you just the same  
You said, 'Olivia this wasn't your fault
 you shouldn't hurt anymore.'
 and seven years melted into insecure memories
 as I remembered what you were
 what you made me   become