skipping

i skipped school for you today
and the day before
and last week

baby, i don’t want you to do that for me
your school is important
don’t let me be a burden

that’s what you would tell me.
and i’d agree
but what if i said i also did it for me?

but honestly, sitting in a hard
cold chair, staring at the board
letters and numbers mix
and i can’t make any sense of what
is being explained

break time comes around
i walk around like a ghost
everyone and no one is looking

i would rather stay out.
sit on a hard, cold bench
staring at the sky
voices and the sounds of cars mix
and i can’t make any sense of where all these people are going.

i’ve been sat for too long
have to get up to stretch my legs
i walk around like a ghost
everyone and no one is looking.

how can i concentrate when i worry
when you are all i think about
when i walk around and imagine you are next to me
maybe we are fighting
maybe we are holding hands
or maybe i see you across the street
and you don’t even recognise me
whatever scenario my thoughts might create

i’ll come home and lie to my family
everything went great
it was lots of fun
little do they know
i’m lying straight to their face.

i skipped school today
and i will do it again.
i’m sorry
 for what i’ve become