In another life

Everything that could keep us apart, already does.  
 
Our positions in society keep us apart.  
 
Our lack of common interests divide the both of us.  
 
Even the methods we each use to communicate with others makes conversation between us so confusing.  
 
It’s almost suffocating for both of us to even be in the same room together for reasons that are so infuriatingly inexplicable.  
 
I would have to travel to the moon with you for it to be acceptable for both of us to even have a chance at a relationship.  
 
What a joke it’d be to believe that there is even the slightest chance for us, right?  
 
Right.  
 
So, because I’ll never get the chance to tell you my true feelings, I’d like to say all of this:  
 
Whenever you’re at work, you are automatically my favourite person in the whole building, hands down.  
 
I cherish every single moment that you spare to talk to me, even down to the superficially simple greetings.  
 
When I’m at the office and you’re having fun with someone else, I make excuses just to be near you and continue to fail miserably.  
 
I have dreams about holding your gaze long enough to tell you that your eyes are the most beautiful thing that I’ve seen that entire day.  
 
I’m slightly jealous whenever someone else has made your day, though it’s an absolute breath of relief that you aren’t as stressed out as you were before.  
 
Whenever you talk about travelling, I always have a passing thought about going with you to all of your favourite places.  
 
My heart skips a beat whenever we’re close enough to each other to hold hands.  
 
And…I could honestly go on and on.  
 
But,  
 
Everything, down to the colours of each our skin, down to the most convoluted social convention, currently divides the two of us. Like, I don’t even know how you feel towards people with my type of sexuality.  
 
Frankly, it is not wise to jump into a chasm with nothing but a piece of rope keeping me from becoming ground meat, though part of me wants so badly to risk it all just to tell you the truth and nothing but the truth.  
 
Still, one of these days, we’re going to have to leave each other to move on to bigger opportunities. It is just the natural course of life. We may never see each other again after each of us has gone to better things.  
 
But I only wish that you are loved by your friends and family for many, many years to come so that you can laugh for another day, and continue to live the rest of your life with the most courageous of spirits. I’m ultimately grateful to have known you, so thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being part of my life.  
 
Perhaps, in another life, you would know just how much I truly love you.
 
- maikee