Dear Diary

Dear Diary…
Dear Journal…?
Dear untitled spiral
With loose pages
Metal that can
Barely hold things together
I’m bound to you
I can relate
One and the same
You’re a physical record
Of my mind
Proof of the trauma
I can’t leave behind
And the lies I convey
To be reality
Just to remain blind
What is ignorance
Without bliss?
The things we push away.
Our worst fears
That rise like the dead yesterdays
With no peace…

Dear diary…
Dear me,
How do I find sanity?
Defining my inner peace
Eliminating things that removes
My bliss, showing me
The safety blanket of ignorance
Isn’t everything I hoped
It to be