confusion

tonight, i am confused.  
on saturday, i was fulfilled.
on wednesday, i felt alone.  
 
nothing changed in between,  
the constellation did not.  
what changed is my mind, i‘m keen
to be loved, keen to feel hot.
 
yesterday, i was sad.  
on friday, i felt safe.  
on tuesday, i was happy.
 
nothing changed, except for me.  
what does he want from me? my body,
my words, or my heart?  
now i can’t help myself with being smart…