blue

 
inside die a little to happiness lost
gifted liar weep regret

too soon you went away
into the dark
where I couldn't touch you
my vaulted secrets burn me
but you would never know my keening regret

I seek you in the darkness
too cold to touch
your angry shut me out

I wept in the blue, alone
I wanted to fix things
but there would be no mending

my sorrow spoke to you
but you didn't hear when my voice broke a little
fateful day, when you left

I fade into the shadows
hiding my pain behind a veil
a smile, saying I'm okay

false pride wouldn't let me crack in front of you
I was dying inside but you couldn't see
my secrets were kept deep within

I wouldn't be her
the one left behind bitter and angry
I was stoic all the while barren of feeling

my emptiness spoke to me
my loneliness wailed
I was so forlorn inside my internal storm

I wanted to throw myself down and cry
weep tears of regret
but I couldn't get release
so thick were the lies I told myself
you would come back

I sought you in the darkness of my soul
and found you were gone for good
flitting in and out of picture
were our good times

lost in a moment