How many times?

How many times must I tell you?
How many times till it's true?
I never hated you, only me
And it's you who needs to be free
I'm sorry I'm a disappointment
But it won't be long till life is spent
Soon You will live long and happy
While, alone in hell, is me
Don't worry, I begged for this
This lovely pain is pure bliss
Don't worry, this is what I expected
After every time I've been regected
Don't worry, I can handle the blame
And I promise, you will forget my name
So how many times till it's true?
I could never bring myself to hate you