remembering a bright, sunny afternoon

the new place I work is    
in an old area where I    
USED to work a decade    
ago    
   
took a drive after work    
   
remembering what I    
thought were the good    
old days    
   
     I suppose in some    
        unnatural way they were    
   
because when you are    
      young and in love the    
       natural becomes unnatural    
                          and the unnatural    
                              becomes natural    
or some stupid    
shit like  
that    
   
realized that I passed    
by the funeral home    
where you body had    
laid in state    
   
waiting for the    
          mourners    
               the tears    
   
...and all the shallow,    
    cliche comments that    
        are said when people    
          don't know what to say    
   
1. She's in God's hands now    
2. At least she isn't suffering anymore    
3. I can't believe she's gone!    
   
that was some fifteen    
years ago    
   
you had brain cancer and    
didn't know    
   
or you did and didn't tell    
anyone    
   
I hadn't thought    
  about you or those    
   days in a long while    
   
or that bright sunny    
day    
   
but I thought    
  you'd like to know    
   
that I thought    
  about you today    
   
and the sun is    
     still shinning    
        just as bright    
   
all my love    
   wherever    
        you are