Useless

Pittance gained in anger,
I learnt from your neon show,
a red cheek warns I’m poisonous,
five fingers prints aglow.

Crying games verses muscle flex,
smart bitch; we bloody know,
issues raked up from the past,
I just fucking well won't go.

Semi-conscience happiness,
as your crimson smile shines,

ha,


you never thought I’d go;
that far,

but what is mine,

is mine.


'Better the devil you know',
a quip,
so quick,
'you cunt',
you bleated,

to know, I care
and clenched my fist,
enjoying –
force I meted.

Knees up I made that moulin, rouge,
your foreplay of neglect;
as you muttered bottled dreams through touch;
I fuck deeper,
you reflect.

(shusssssh, we will laugh about all this tomorrow, maybe you should have had the double I bought rather than being so much better than us all, eh..)


I didn’t feel bad,

after the commotion,

when you shared a chaotic smile,


it said to me,


‘I know you’re right’


raping you was just worthwhile.