Double-crossed

My head hurts simply to think of it.
I am forced to look through many lenses and shades.
Though the one’s who’s lenses I must peer through,
Will never take the time to look through my own.

I’ve been tricked once again.
I must see both sides and question myself constantly.
It irritates me.
It irritates me more than I let on.

Of course I don’t simply accept the deception.
When deceived,
One must remind the other where they stand.
This can lead to a never ending war.

Whether the war takes place internally or externally,
The entire goal of the war is to win.
Even more than that,
The end point is to get what is wanted.

The only way to do this,
Is to allow everyone else to think they are winning.
Of course,
They will be wrong.

They will always be fucking wrong.
Don’t fucking forget it.