Infusion of Fate

A lot of depth in this...

I agree, alot of depth. Mediocrity - my greatest frear, lol. I think my desire to be above average is going to take me places in a positive way.
I see you are really starting to write from your core, nicely done.

Yeah, like the two commenters before me - you're getting more in depth and relatable.  I like how you apply certain stoic philosophy with conviction, when you put the semantics of "love" into perspective. You elicit a certain strength to be observed, in knowing there's a "heart beating for everyone out there," but you don't give into the immoral and cheap hedonism of the world.  You're willing to endure and wait for purpose and truth, or your true love, to put you past being "mediocre.".  I pick up on as if you know full well your potential won't be realized without this love.  Anyway, the way this poem ends is almost a preview of a transition, or a twist in the plot.  It's a good turning point to maybe write about when "she" is interjected in your life.  It's like you're ready to find the one you love, and this poem is the preparation of such.  The only problem is that you don't give yourself enough confidence in the chance to "great."  "My failure to produce a symphony due to the confines of mediocrity."  You're more than that man.  That sentence in itself shows potential.  Anyway, I hope this helps.  I look forward to more stuff from you.  You're full of potential.

Pretty mysterious and atmospheric. Good write.

"My idea of happiness was an ambition that exceeded my ability." I have felt this way often but when it weighs me down too much, I start swearing to myself & begin exploring other options, lol.

Dude!! This is beautiful poem.. powerfully composed. I like this.