Paint my World

 Im an artist thus painting a picture of me everyday that i live,
im holding my brush for another Inevitable stroke that (only I for see),

Because my nightmares keep my mind from realizing my body already awoke...
So I color my world a lighter shade of grey, cause no matter what religion say,






im not vengeful, im not forgiving  
im not happy, im not sad,
im not even really alive,
im barely able to decide,
weather or not If im my own god,
or just an idea that they had thought upon,