The necessity

When you look at me
I cannot lie to thee
Damn you
I feel it too
Steady
Heavy
When you see through

Not even subtle
As your neck snaps
With a swift
Tongue lash
A question sporadically asked...
Damn you

That gaze keeps me awake
All night
Till day
Creeps into view
And again
I busy myself to be rid of you
Damn you

It's been a distance
Across the country
Where I dwindled
The knowledge of you
... I thought
Dwindled

But of course
I come back
To a disheveled man
Still beautiful
More beautiful now
Than I remembered

I lay awake solely
Waiting
To see you again

Every second
Every breath
Catches
Hard in my chest
Until the next
Meeting

Do not lecture me
Of loneliness
It is every time I turn away
And leave
It is a necessity

We
Are no good.