Am I rehabilitated

 

I have been locked up by a padlock of distrust waiting on Houdini . And with his magical dexterity and patience he will see I’m more than my tragic yesterdays and Stockholm syndrome that broke me and caused me to drop out of life  . I’m desperately trying to see to pick that lock but I feel like I owe a debt to society for being so naïve .  I’m certain that another would have solved the mystery of the web of lies . I’m trying to rationalise and take accountability to be able to cleanse my soul so this is my purgatory for my genuine gullibility . I didn’t chose this incarceration it just found me with a heart that was so completely open and full of love  but one truthful fact stopped me in my tracks , it’s not cancer it’s an affair with a baby on the way .It drains and chokes and leaves an emptiness evoked by disgust of why that nobody perceives.  Only my heart does and it’s got sentenced to jail time for my sanity . The question is am I totally rehabilitated for being convicted by a narcissist manipulator that everything was is in my mind . I changed forever becoming the FBI for my shame and he is changed married twice and still living as a free man and they say crime doesn’t pay . Honestly you want to think again .