Trade My Dreams for Insomnia

My body shifts  
Every few minutes  
As my mind incessantly  
Stirs the irony
Of my upcoming reality  
 
You’ve been asleep for hours  
And haven’t noticed my soft  
Touch, followed by a  
quiet withdraw
lingering feelings that send  
Me into deep thought  
In a dark room  
Hot, with the fan on  
 
Hot with your rhythmic  
Breathe on my neck  
And I wish I could freeze time  
But instead I turn my body  
Face down; Down  
Soaking in welled up tears  
 
Disdain for the wit of life  
Somewhere I finally want to stay  
My nomadic tendencies fade  
In your arms I feel safe  
In this bed I lose my strength  
And reach for you again  
 
I exchange dreams for insomnia  
So I can soak in these long  
Soon to end, precious,
Over examined nights
Love divided by international boarders  
Paying the dues of past mistakes  
 
I can hear the drip of melting snow  
Conflicted by the sound of it
In the dead of winter  
you’ve kept me warm  
But in spring  
I’ll need my dreams back.