I Can't Be Real

I cannot be real.
Unspent years passing by
Living inside of my own mind
I've spent more time in a trance
Then I have in the dance
With life, I can't seem to remember
All 26 September's
That have passed right on by
While I was flying alone in my mind
My memories are all gone
And the ones I remember are wrong
My existence has gone,
probably lost somewhere in a yawn
I don't think I'm real
Because there's a lot i no longer feel
I don't think I can exist
when it feels like My soul is adrift
I cannot be alive, because I know
I've spent more years in mind
Then I've spent living my life.