I want peace I want to have good dreams when I sleep I want to go outside and be able to just breathe I want these feelings to die I wish they had never arised It doesn't matter how hard I try they'll always take over my life
I can't stand the fear I can't stand the tears I wish my head would just clear
I stand in the chaos of my own mind Sadly I can't say that I'm fine But I smile and laugh I'm ashamed but hiding it has become a craft Ill never be able to show my broken half.
Her warm kind eyes have turned cold and empty shes devoid of sanity when there used to be plenty Her mind a shell of its former glory She cant even remember her own story Her voice calls me a name that I do not own She's in a constant state of unknown Her brain lives stuck in the past She's losing herself fast Her mind nothing but a jumble She speaks in muddy mumbles Her eyes don't recognize my face She's not at home at her own place Her lucid moments are the best She doesn't know how many are left.
I live in a world of grey What else can I say? When I look into my own eyes A part of me dies I'm living a lie Because I am dying inside Waiting for another fix Waiting for another hit Waiting for someone to save me from this At my lowest when I am the highest Asking myself, "Why did I even try this?" It staves off the emptiness It helps the edginess It helps fill the hole That's in my soul That's growing out if control Just like a staircase I'm spiraling And just like that I'm dialing ...