Stars Of The Eclipse Pt. 1

Trapped under the night sky  
And it's starting to burn
Having all these disorders  
I'm starting to get concerned
Feeling the pressure of a lover
I'm starting to get scared
Kissing his lips as he's pressed against me  
With his hands running through my hair
The moonlight standing over a starving garden
Watching endless flowers die
I'm still searching for myself  
Hoping I don't go blind  
I wish I could fly
To look down on the life i was given
I wonder about my self-harm  
The drug I started at eleven
At one point  
I knew what I was doing  
Climbing the latter, to grab a star
Something to keep me going
I would start to speak  
But I'm scared of the long, drawn-out lies
It's getting late anyway
And I'd hate to see the sunrise