Portal of Tears

Hello my friend…
 
I just thought I would write to you…
 
Been crying…
 
And I dont…  Cry…
 
Gotta text from my mom at 6 am…
 
Asking if I was awake…
 
For once…
 
I had fallen asleep before 6 am…
 
I awoke at 9 am…
 
Asked if everything was ok…
 
I get real defensive/offensive real fast…
 
Especially when it comes to women I love...
 
Ready for war…
 
Whenever…
 
Like… I don’t care about jail sort of mind set…
 
Like…  I got duct tape and a shovel…
 
And a crazy ultraviolent mind…
 
And a sword that I can cut your fuckin head off with…
 
I spoke to her later…
 
My grandma…
 
They say she may be knocking on Heaven’s door…
 
I have been…
 
Gazing into portals of tears...