Illusion Of His Presence

You abandoned me at my worst,
when you should have gotten to know me first.
My throat is dry,and so i feel thirst.

But no words can fullfill that thirst.
 I have to get my affection first.
But who will give that to me,when nobody has done that in years?

 ""It's new year!"", they said as they cheered.
While I still have nobody near me.
Angel guardian,can you hear me?

 I asked as I shouted in the sky.
But i didn't get no reply. Just the wind blowing in my hair.
 Do you even truly care? Was my past even fair?

 I ask myself as I sit on the bench.
Then,somebody sat next to me.
He asked me,""I love you! Do you trust me?"".

He kissed me and I instantly fell inlove.
Because when you are away,I fall apart.
His eyes shined like diamonds in the sky.

 I felt loved,as I try not to cry. He wiped my tears,
and helped me up to fly. I felt happy,I felt loved.
 But then it all fell apart.

Alas, that dream of  a guy is not real.
But when I am with him in my mind,
happiness is all I feel. Oh,if only he was real.

He could have really helped me heal.
I know,I may seem crazy for thinking that.
But when i am without him,I fall apart.