intervention

sitting in a room full of family and friends
just counting the minutes till this intervention ends

secret anxiety awaiting the time
i can get some drugs to numb my mind

they tell me they love me and i watch them cry
but all i can think is "i need to get high"

first my mother, then sister and brother, now friend
but all i want is to use again

as i hear them talk my hands start to shake
now i just need is a cigarette break

stuck in this room as day turns to night
they keep telling me to do this right

they tell me they love me, they tell me they care
but until now they were never there

at this time my eyes start to tear
from someone who wasn't there, this is not what i want to hear

what do i do to make this end
get on a plane and never use again
go to rehab for 90 days
start my life over - stay away

i don't know if i can
when i started this shit, i had no plan

the only thing i know for sure
is that if i'm going to quit
i need to at least get one last hit.