Good Old TImes

All I wanted was for you to return.
My loneliness is starting to burn.
It's eating my feelings out tonight.

But how am I still alive?
My insides are covered in rashes and pain.
Yet,I can still enjoy the rain.

Let the rain sounds cleanse me right and through.
 But they can't heal everything,that is true.
No matter how much cream I apply to the wound,

when I see you,I will cry harder than a wolf.
I struggle to show my emotions right away.
But I need you,so please let me stay.

If I have to,I will buy you flowers,chocolates and gifts.
 Just so you can stay where I need you.
 I hoped for you to heal my broken heart.

Instead,you shattered it while we were in the park.
It's night, and it's getting dark.
I'm alone,but I feel a spark.

 I wish I could watch the stairs with you all night.
 But my mental health is not alright.
It's trying to push you away from me.

It's making me hide the real me.
Now all that's left is the shadow of someone I used to have.
My mind can be a grave, it's getting dark.

Ghosts of the people I used to be are there.
 I am getting self aware.
The happy,young me is nowhere to be found.

All that's left is ashes on the ground.