Rewarded with a fist

I don't want to be alone any more,
Father,why did you give me life?
Why did you lock me behind a door?
What you did to me back then wasn't
Right.

I tried so hard to please you dad,
No matter what I did you considered
It bad,
You turned my good intentions into
Endless battles,
My good report card earned me strikes
From your belts and paddles.


Why did you impregnate my mother?
When all you did to your baby son is
Make him suffer?
Did you find pleasure in hitting me with
Your fist?
Did you like breaking my fucking nose
When I accidentally broke a dish?


I tried my best to please you dad,I gave
You my all,
You gave me torture and pain,you ridiculed
Me for my every flaw,
You killed me dad,when I was just a kid,
You fucking destroyed my childhood before
I had a chance to live it,
By the time I turned thirteen,my self esteem
Was decrepit,
You never gave a damn!
You just liked hitting me,did that make you
Feel like a man?
I was tired of all the beatings dad!tired of all
The shit you put me through,
I cried for days dad when you broke my arm
With the car door,
As I lay on the ground you yelled"son,i'll be back
To beat you more"!
Why did you have to do those fucking things?
Why did you have to take away the wind beneath
My wings?
I tried my best to please you dad,I gave you all I
Had,
Gave you my entire childhood,do you still think I'm
Bad?
Did it make you happy when you knocked my teeth
Out with your fist?
How did you feel when you seen that I cut my own
Wrists...