I miss you

I miss you
I've typed and deleted a hundred times
The mouse cursor hovering over send
An unsent message of love
Like so many of our unspoken words
It holds such meaning
Such explosive potential
With deadly shrapnel
Of course there's always the chance
It's just another dud
Its inner workings rusted
Dated and beyond repair
It wouldn't be the first time

It means something to me
A thousand perfect memories
A thrum of kinetic and emotional energy
I miss you
Maybe I only write it for me
Not you
In my heart it still holds power
The explosion violent and destructive
How can it fail in yours?
But I know it would
There's nothing left
No spark to detonate
So I leave it unsaid