Searching for completion

Seems like 3 years have passed and I hold onto the hope to hear from you. I tell you that I love you because I do even though you may think not.

And I could of treated you better than I’ve demonstrated. As you know depression consumes me and thinking about things doesn’t always comes fluidly.

It doesn’t take away my feelings for you, my heart from you, and the desire of life with you.  I’ll always want you in whatever shape, condition or existence you’re living.

I love and accept you luv, always have and will. I’m living but never happy because life isn’t pleasurable. I never thought you would turn your back to me even as a friend.

And definitely can’t believe that I’m begging for your attention just for a moment to see, hear, speak with you. I sometimes dream of seeing you in places and you’re ignoring me.

Or act like we’ve never met, it’s tragic that it’s embedded in my mind you’re mistreating me. You’ve impacted my life from the beginning and continues to be felt still.  
 
I crave life with you and everything that comes with it. I want you with me period. If that means living wherever you are, I will. I’ll leave everything behind for you and never regret a day because you mean everything to me.

I love you with everything in me and that will never change or ceases; even if you or I should perish it still remain