Feelings Of Past

You use to be my heart cast...
Making my heart so chaotic,
My love for you was so vast.
That's all in the past,
But I still find you so hypnotic.
If only time wasn't so fast,
I feel so idiotic.
But you used me,
And your feelings have passed,
Making my emotions so robotic.
I can't even gasp,
From a heart shattering blast.
I feel like an alcoholic,
But I know I'm far from it.
I'm just a social outcast,
With nothing to commit or fit.
Holding on to that old broken heart broadcast,
I'm so afraid,
Of what the broadcast monsters have
to say.
when they pull out that rusted blade,
Leaving my heart on display.
Letting others invade,
To conduct a survey.
Making every minute as long as a decade,
Leading to fast heart decay.
I'm still so afraid,
I'm not ready for the end of this play.
But I've already lost my blockade,
Please don't let this be my last broken heart day....