On My Mind

I got a lot on my mind
I got a lot on my plate
Everyone thinks I’m fine
They think I’m straight
Feeling a little less love
And a lot more hate
It’s getting harder and harder
to carry this weight
I just leave it up to God
He knows my fate
Hoping one day I make it
To heavens gate
I see the temptation
I’m not up for the bate
Praying I repent
before it’s too late
I might try and take a different route
maybe along the way I’ll see the truth
The truth of my fate
and what I’m up against
Got my back against the wall
I’m slowly losing breath
Only death around me
I can’t stress
This is chess
I swear I’m blessed
To see a second chance
To see a second me
Without the ones I love
 there wouldn’t be me
There’s no I in team
Just a young black queen
Chasing a dream
there’s no in between
21 years old
I’m no longer that teen
Who was once naive
Had my heart on my sleeve
I can’t give out second chances
That’s just not me
 To the ones who still have me
I pray you see brighter days
Got a lot on my mind
I done seen a lot of pain
Left a lot of people behind
I’m in my lane
I can’t give up my blessings
I got a lot to gain
By the end of my time
You will know my name
Not a thing has changed
I’m still the same
Ki that I claimed
I’m no longer feeling wreckless
I been tamed
there’s no one to blame
For my absence of the world
I don’t want the fame
I just want Jesus
He knows my name
I was beautifully made
In his image
I’m just asking for forgiveness
On my knees
As I pray
Amen