#Trauma Response

I’m sorry for things people say I shouldn’t apologize for.
But the same people look at me and say they expected more.
The same people are part of the reasons why I’ve had to pick myself up off the floor in the first place.
I’m sorry you feel that I’m such a disgrace.

I’m sorry I’m a disappointment.
I’m sorry you feel I’m not worth it, all the stress and bullshit that I cause.
I’m sorry I constantly feel like I’m not enough.
I’m sorry I can’t handle the tough love.

I’m sorry you feel the drama that comes with me and my trauma makes you uncomfortable.
I’m sorry my heart is easily penetrable.
I should be in a box that says carful she’s fragile.
My heart is like a doll made of porcelain.
I’m sorry I fail at being human.
I’m even more sorry that you fail to know what it’s like to be a compassionate human being.
Looks are deceiving.
Who let you decide how long I should be grieving?
You claim it’s tough love, what other lies are you feeding to the people you love?

When will enough be enough?
There’s a difference between compassion and tough love!

Oh how the tables have turned.
Genuine love and honesty is all I ever yearned for!

I’m sorry that you gave up on me,
Even though you’re the one who got down on one knee.

I’m not sorry for falling apart,
I’m not sorry because you’re the one who broke my heart.
I’m not sorry that you chose to leave.
In fact I’m grateful that we’re both free.