"force of nature"

      
     
     
     
    the truth is an appetite to "live" and feel satisfied....like animals in the wild feeding to survive;      
     
    humankind domesticated and submerged in civil lies; fighting the "force of nature" that resides;      
     
     
    depression is the flip side to out right aggression; depression is knowing what this is....hating this experience-hating one's self as well as "society" because of what resides on the inside-because of the created narratives, manipulation, violence of all kinds....knowing that creatures fight, lust, and feed in every form....      
     
     
humankind is a mess; the root of depression is the "force of nature" we struggle with, and "fight" against; depression stems from, feeling trapped inside and out.... the damns if you dos or don'ts....      
     
     
an as good as it gets organized mess.... even the "wealthiest" person could be depressed.... there's always more or less weight in ones' head and chest....      
     
     
wondering what could one be doing instead all of this....but is there really even anything to do to give one life that feels dead? what makes life worth living?-surviving in a fallen/failing world disguised as anything but....
   
     
     
"fight" or "flight"; I've been soaring sky high all throughout this disappointing life....