Not Forever

Wake up with a tearstained face
Memories of the night before flood in
Look down at your wrists
Red and raw and hideous
Marred with the path of a razorblade
Glance in the mirror
Fresh tears spring forth
You see a girl with pain in her eyes
Spark gone, expression lifeless
You see what you vowed never to become
Lost in your emotions
Swimming below the surface of the ocean
You can’t see the smile of the girl you were before
Can’t hear the laughs that once escaped your lips
Can’t feel the warmth of your mother’s embrace
Inside, you are dead
Outside, you must keep on living
But not for long