I Need You

I need you like the gun you're holding needs another bullet,
Palms are sweaty, arms are heavy,
Contemplate then pull it.
I think it foolish& careless of me to walk away,
To find my harmony but walk alone on scary days.
I need you like I need to watch you tear my soul apart.
I need you like I need to hear you pluck strings of my heart.
I need you like I need your grip around my throat to tighten.
I need you like I need to watch your knuckles slowly whiten.
Because of you, my reality fuses with dreams,
My mental capacity, bursting and pulling at the seams.
I need you like I need to stop my breath and forget to breathe.
And in the end? I'd do anything to put you at ease,
Anything with my hands just to watch ours weave.
I need you like I need to admit you're the enemy.
I need you because even my shadows abandon me.
Even when I'm gone, I need you to know my calamity.
I need you like I need to realize you're the end of me.
I need you like I need to pop a cyanide,
Or fasten a noose
&find a place where I can hang it high.
I need you like I need a deep hole for me to crawl&hide.
I need you like I need to leave everything behind.
But most of all, I need you.
Just because I wrote this does not make me a wimp,